Saturday, January 16, 2010


My Wii Fit just kicked my ass. Again.

I couldn't sleep past 5:30 this morning, but I went to be at about 11:30 last night, so hopefully I will survive the day. I don't even know why I woke up; I had my alarm set for 7:30 and was pretty much set on waking up them. Oh well.

I made some tea, 2 pieces of toast, and some potatoes. I am still working on the tea. I wish it didn't get so cold so fast. If I put it in the thermos or something, I always make too much and have the shits the rest of the day.

I really intended to be on the wii fit for 20 minutes today, I really did. The first thing was running, of course, and I'm not wearing a sports bra so I was a little uneven and quite uncomfortable. It kept telling me I was too slow. No shit, Sherlock. The nunchuck controller wasn't reading right. Ugh. I guess I could have lived with those things, but my fucking feet started hurting pretty badly. I have no idea why. I was wearing my green Nikes and I had never really had much of a problem with them. Maybe it was the running in place. Maybe I will go for a brisk walk when the sun comes up. Who knows? I should probably go to my office... Hmmm... I just may do that.

I want to straighten up the junk room a little, so it's not so junky. It smells like kitty litter, bad, in there. But what can I do? I have 5 damn cats.

I don't really have anything else I want to accomplish today, other than what I mentioned last night.

'Saturday'- FOB: I'm good to go for something golden, though the motions I have been going through have failed.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Swing, Swing

Trying to get back into the swing of things. I am going to force myself to sleep tonight and stay awake all day tomorrow.

Today I: swept/mopped the kitchen, made myself dinner... That's about it.

I think I would like to make Friday evenings my official cleaning day. I will tackle a room in the house in need of cleaning, usually the living room. I will try and get everything all straightened up this weekend to get on an even footing with it.

I will probably clean the little boxes tonight, vacuum, organize, straighten, etc tomorrow.

I need to start taking better care of myself. I have been neglecting my personal hygiene, something that is absolutely unacceptable to me. I am six weeks late on my period, so I think that probably doesn't help my mental state of mind. I have, however, been able to keep up with my Alli and Zoloft. I still have crazy bouts of anxiety, though. I have taken a Diaz every day this week, and I could not tell you why that is exactly.

I've got a lot to do before school starts on Tues. I need to copy/make copies of the short stories, edit my syllabus, re-submit my syllabus, make copies of the bastard, all that good stuff.

Am I trying to do too much? I can't rely on Andy to do anything. Sometimes, honestly, I resent him for it. I know he works 40 hours a week and all, but the way he makes it sounds, he just stands around and talks 1/3 of the time. I can't do anything to get him motivated to help me out. I have to remind him to do EVERYTHING. I can't keep doing that. It will be 3 years of marriage in Feb, 4 years of being together at the end of this month. You would think that he would get the fucking hint by now. Apparently not.

I stink right now. I'm hungry. Things are horribly out of order in my house. I am losing my mind.

Andy doesn't notice a fucking thing.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Let's see what I can do

My brain is a mess. I can't keep track of much of anything. However, the internet doesn't go anywhere, so I am going to try TRY to keep up with myself on here.

Ran for like... 5 minutes, walked for 15
watered plants
Trimmed plants

All for now