In my meeting

I'm in a meeting right now. I wish everyone would shut up. I can feel my depression taking over again. I don't want anyone to talk to me, or look at me. I wish everyone would wait their turn to speak. I wish everyone would actually think before they speak.

Am I like this? Am I really this annoying when I am not being surly and annoyed? Please for the love of God no one ask me what is wrong. The worst part about this is when people ask what's wrong and I really have no answer.

Thanks for volunteering me to do everything, jerkwads. Thanks. Really, thanks for nothing. I hope you all get the same treatment soon. I really do.

JESUS SOMEONE MAKE A FUCKING DECISION

I can't do another hour of this.

PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD WILL YOU MAKE YOURSELF CLEAR!?

Freakin' rain

After a weekend of doing next to nothing, I needed to get back on the horse. I forced myself to go to bed at midnight and got up after only hitting the snooze button once. The cats wouldn't let me rest, they were hungry apparently. I did manage to work out for 15 minutes or so, though.

Andy drove me to and from work as it's still pretty humid out and the rain has been unpredictable. I farted around a little, made dinner way too late (Andy decided that playing WoW was a better use of his time than cooking dinner like he said he would) and thus ended up going walking way too late. I just now got home after a grievously abbreviated walk because the rain was starting up and it was really dark. In addition to this, my tea time beverage hit me at the point of no return, that spot where it is equally far to walk home each way, making it quite uncomfortable to walk fast.

I will probably call it a night here. Frank came by the 2 pm class to observe and kept saying how he wouldn't have changed anything; I hope he means it. I guess it wouldn't be in his best interest to lie...

I'm trying, I really am.

I was going to walk to school today, or at the very least bike, but then I realised I had about 30 lbs of books in my backpack that needed to go to the office. I snacked very little while there (just some nuts and dried fruit) and came straight home after class to make dinner. Unfortunately, Andy won't be home for another hour, and dinner has been "ready" for an hour before now, so I'm not sure how he will react. I can't help it that he is on a different schedule than me. One of the contributors to my weight gain was me waiting to eat with him, so I would starve, snack, then eat a big meal. I think he understands that I am serious about needing to lose weight, so here's hoping he doesn't get upset.

After dinner, (with minimal cheese I might add) I went for a walk around Dedmon. I took a loner way and went backwards, but somehow I still wasn't gone for more than 30 minutes. What gives? Do I need to walk farther?

I am going to try and keep this updated so I can track my progess.

Perhaps I will do yoga tomorrow evening, who knows?